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Wednesday, November 17, 2010
in my head
thats a really good song ... but thats not what i mean i have a great family and man in my life but latly i have been feely really bad about my self and i dont know why i feel like theres something going wrong with me like imnot good enough to deserve what i now have i almost feel like things are going to blow up in my face soon so i get myself prepared instead of enjoying what i have in my life right now everything is great except for me i wan to t feel like i deserve what i have in my life and i want to be able to enjoy it not always worry when the ball is going to drop i feel like my man and me who have never faught are going down hill and i know its just me and i try to hide it from him but he knows me so well that he knows when somethings wrong i think my big issue is i am trying to lose weight and its noty happeneing as fast as id like it to i try hard and all day im goods but come supper time im done. i will eat what ever my family eats and thats not good cause they like crappy stuff like icecream and i have sometimes swicherdfrozen fruit for the ice cream but halloween candy is still around and my worst thing is with chocolate i cant see it without eating it i try not to have it around me but then my man will go buy some i need to be able to say hun u can have it i dont want it but thats really hard i just need to have good will power and i used to for a bit but when i get happy i eat wich is weird usually its when peoplearent happy thery seem to eat more wow i must be backwords
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